By Andrea Sobotka
The Voice of Spirit Tiger
Dream Entry on June 12 2009 – As I retire for the night in the nest of my soft and safe bed, I have much on my mind. I breathe deep and take myself into a relaxing meditative state asking Spirit for permission to share body space with that of my lifelong totem, the tiger. I want to physically feel her strength and wisdom so that I may set my foot on the right path in the morning. I feel the blood rushing through the veins of my arms and legs, there is a tingling sensation all over my body and then a final twitching as I enter dream-space…
I am standing in a two story lodge located in a wintery, cold, mountainous place along with my husband and my beloved English bulldog dog, Jack. We are visiting family there. We look out the window and see that a large shaggy coated ox with very long horns has appeared on the property. In everyone’s excitement, someone opens a door and Jack gets out! Jack chases the ox and both disappear into the dark depths of the forest beyond the property. I beg for some winter boots and a coat so I can go looking for Jack. As I leave the lodge, night has fallen and now the area is over run with panthers. Some are black and some are white. They are hungry and hunting. I am crying desperately for Jack but I manage to avoid the panthers as I set out on my own to find him.
Miles and miles are crossed as the days pass by. I know this frozen mountain land I am travelling through, I lived here long ago. I even stop at shops and dwellings in villages along the way to visit people I know from the past, gather supplies, and look for clues and signs of Jack. As I depart from an old tack & supply shop, I pass through an exterior shed built of green vinyl siding. I am just about to step out the doorway into the winter-scape beyond the threshold when I see a massive tiger charging at full speed down a snowy valley pathway towards the shed! Sparkly white snow is flying from its giant paws and muscular back as it swiftly approaches. I dive back in across the shed to a far corner and huddle up hoping the tiger has not seen me.
The air is electric, the whole dream-space seems highly charged with energy, and every sensation is magnified a thousand fold; The room seems to glow with a jewel green light reflecting off the shed walls, I feel my heart pounding in my chest, I see my breath crystallize like a million small diamonds on the air in front of me, I hear my frozen hair brushing against the siding as I slowly move my head to look in the direction of the doorway. I stop moving and pray that the tiger has not heard the sound of my hair as well. I try to slow my breathing and I wonder why the tiger has not simply crashed through the flimsy door of the green shed.
As I crouch still as a statue, I hear the magnificent tiger slowly moving through the snow directly on the other side of the wall from me…so close; I can smell her sweet thick fur and hear her even breath. She stops moving, then I hear a deep, loud voice that seems to fill the electric air around me. The big clear voice says; “I AM COMING FOR YOU”. It is the voice of the tiger! The voice seems neither male nor female, but continues on with purpose; “COME WITH ME AND YOU WILL KNOW PEACE”. I don’t move a muscle. I think to myself “ Ya sure! You’ll EAT me and then I will REST in peace!”
As I consider my situation and my choices at hand, I suddenly have a second thought, as if remembering something important, and I am reconsidering the tiger’s words. Just as calm passes over me and a new understanding of the powerful voice begins to cross my mind…I wake up.
Andrea, Critter Doc